Oh darn! Tomorrow is already the start of ENG School Week 0 Orientation and I'm already having mixed feelings - anxious, nervous, scared, stoked, doubtful.

I'm really acting like a real freshman. What if I act too weirdly and the IFM people will stare at me like some alien...? What if I can't adapt and have trouble making friends in real life...? What if I'm doomed to be a loner...? See, my life is a big WHAT IF.

I can't be too shy and anti-social from now on. I did said the starting of Polytechnic will have a new me, anyways. I better hold on to that statement or else I've failed this whole new resolution, trying to be a chic nerd. Heh!

What the heck. For anyone's information, I just got lectured by an old friend of mine to smile more from now on. Thanks, buddy...

He said I don't smile so much in the past and to him, it's a wasted thing. He also added that if I smile more to any people, I'd be more lovable and easy to approach. Well, not any random people but people people, especially friends, friends of friends or friends-to-be.

And I actually promised him I'll change. What a dork.

I'm so gonna smack him upside down when I see him around school. At least I'm lucky he's not in the same course as me. Or death shall pursue after me.

But I guess he's quite right. If I want to change, I better start by smiling more.

Here's the updated information about my course-mates so far:

W1101: Syuhada Iskandar, Afifah Oit, Fahmi Amir, Eliza Tay, Ho MinPei, Marjorie Poon, Felicia Lee (7)

W1102: Nakajima Shihoe, Matthew Pang, Charlene Quek, XinYing Poh, Geraldine Goh, Hannah Bowie, Samantha Yeo, Fang Ren (8)

W1103: Tsefang L. Jtcy, Vincent wantstobeGl, Rachel XinYi, Qianhui WantsMusic, Aisyah Jalil, Jeth Ho, Ong SiMin, Arif Arfyan, Cheryl Tan, Meredith Wee, Hanif Hussain, Carissa Boo (12)

W1104: Siti Farhana, Cecilia Cathyfleur, Wendy Teo, Max Afro-Guanxzxzc, Kendra Kwek, Weixuan Ng (6)

W1105: Fong Sock Han, Anqi Ayako, Muhammad Sa'dan, Yanhan Low, Jac Kng, Victoria Liang, HweeYen Kwon, Nurul Farahin, Jasmine Wee, Gh Lovekembangan, Farihin Joehari, Lee Zi Yu (12)

Unknown: Minmin Ho, Ong Ling Ling, Ong Wee Jun, Khairi Yusri, Othat Konishi Tan (5)

The underlines are just the names of the people I've chatted with before. They seem very friendly and that's a problem for me, I'm scared I won't fit among them. I'm not really that hyper in real life if I'm not with my cliques.

That's why I need to freaking change, smile more and kill that anti-social side of me.

You can do it, girl!