The rain falls because the sky can no longer handle its weight. Tears fall because the heart can no longer handle the pain.

We're like parallel lines, no matter how near we are to each other, we'll never meet.

Dedicate your music to the people you love,
but if unrequited this love is,
then your dedication is naught
...
but a curse.

Someone Like You, Adele

"I can imagine being about 40 and looking for him again and turning up, and he's settled and he's got a beautiful wife and some beautiful kids and he's completely happy. And I'm still on my own..."

Such beautiful voice and talent and yet a sad song coming from such a lovely lady. I'm getting goosebumps and I'm crying when I listen to this version of the song. Slow, melodic, emotional, deep meaning. I could go on and listen to this song for days and get emotional on all occasions that this song is playing.

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" I love food and hate exercise. I don’t have time to work out… I don’t want to be on the cover of Playboy or Vogue. I want to be on the cover of Rolling Stone or Q. I’m not a trend-setter… I’m a singer… I’d rather weigh a ton and make an amazing album than to look like Nicole Richie and do a shit album. My aim in life is never to be skinny. "

Adele is awesome!

Twitter Over Facebook. Anytime.

Article: Twitter allows you to choose what matters

If anyone were to ask me to choose, I'll pick Twitter over Facebook. Anytime.

Or so, the article really describes what I think of those two social network, in a more proper sentencing and so forth.

"Clearly, for many people Twitter is like the culture. It is, when you get right down to it, a near-total waste of your time.

And if you think about it, most of what's said in this world is a waste of time for almost everybody else."

Facebook: "its essential flaws - the endless privacy violation, the cumbersome social expectations, the ease with which the word "friend" becomes meaningless..."

Twitter: "is essential and useless, entertaining and revolting, thrilling and banal. It is an echo chamber."

Facebook: I only look forward to the photos uploaded by friends and sharing statuses that can be shared without the need to meet expectations. Okay, so the birthday and events reminders are just the extra pluses...

Twitter: The all-I-can-blab-about medium. No one cares what I say because the choice is theirs - to follow and read my useless/useful musings or just don't follow at all which will save you from the ongoing slash of my random tweets. It has more freedom to whomever I want to talk with, be it unknown people with exact same interest or satirists behind famous characters. News tend to travel faster here too, but you just have to know whomever appropriate to follow in order to get that.

Seeing that I have 268 followers is not bad enough despite the fact that I've tweet so much, with over 20,000 tweets.

Follow me: enchantingsky (Twitter)

Happy Father's Day

My daddy...

who tends to shove fruits into my mouth when I let my guard down;

who still spoon feed me in public even when I'm already 17;

who used to fetch me from my extra classes;

who used to juggle many jobs when we were younger but still has the time to to play with us;

who provides us the shelter, protection and comfortable life;

who still have people saying that he looks young;
who owned me in Angry Birds: Rio;
who sends us to go shopping while he waits patiently at one corner;
who sweeps the floor at odd hours of the day;
who fixes things...sometimes.

Uh huh, that's my Dad (beside Mum in the photo) and I love him for all the little things he did for his kids. He the best man besides my 2 awesome big brothers.

May he be blessed with longevity, good health and lame humor.

I LOVE YOU, DAD! :)

And to the Dads, Dad-to-be, wish to be Dad-to-be out there... For all the things who've done for your children or children-to-be, HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!! <3

All's fair in love and war. 

Am I really over you or am I just trying to live my life without you...

Why is it always easier to confide to a stranger than your own best friend?


My guess is that it is more comfortable and reassuring to let a stranger know your problems and give you advice on something that you think is too embarrassing for your own best friend to know. Ugh, I don't know how to explain it but this is how I think. I tell a stranger, stranger listens and help, I thank stranger and that's the end of confiding the stranger, knowing that I won't be communicating or meeting that stranger ever again. Unlike a best friend who would keep pestering you (out of concern, we all know) about that matter even though you only want to think about it only once. Anyways, no one really wants to feel guilty. So best friends, don't pester me when I don't wish to be pestered. I know you mean well but that's just how I want it to be.

That's how I came to be like this. A win-win situation for all where all is fair in love and war - I don't confide to any strangers or my own best friends but instead, just keep it all bottled up in myself. End product: I close myself up from the world and I become a person so difficult to open up everything that has been unhealthily bottled up. It's eating me from the insides. Argh, how screwed up can I be? I'm stubborn, I don't like to confide to anyone, I'm selfish.

Am I really over you or am I just trying to live my life without you..?


As depressing as it may be, I've been feeding myself with lies after lies and hoping that it would be the former instead of the latter. Who was I kidding? I'm still trying my very best to move along in life without the thought of you overshadowing my life.

I sound pathetic that I feel like eating myself alive. And you're the cause of it all.

Utter Boredom

The silence at home is getting louder and it's eating every last bit of my sanity. It's a wonder, really, how those kids with no siblings manage to survive at home. Oh you know it, I'll be one heck of a lonely girl at home since my 1st brother went to Perth earlier this morning for a 4-days getaway while my 2nd brother is still at Pulau Tekong, attending his military school. (The latter is the reason why I get to type this post from his iPod Touch. I'm sinister.)

All I have to survive is this empty 4 days without any of my brothers. I hope there won't be any awkward moments with my parents... It'll be so bad that I think I could just eat myself alive. Currently, eating brunch alone is already unbearable. I'm trying my best to also not trouble my parents seeing that Mum is always tired and Dad has some problems with his leg. Now you know it, I'm quite a troublesome kid at home if there's nothing to humor me.

To pass up the quiet times, I decided to take it upon myself to find recipes to bake for Father's Day, 1st brother's birthday and 2nd brother's return and I finally made my decision to make Raspberry Swirls Cheesecake Cupcakes since it could make 31 cups of it :) Can't wait! I'll share about my experince of making them if it ever turn out to be a great success, considering that none experience any form of stomach discomfort. Hnhh...
Ooooohh yeah. There'll only be me during Father's Day this year. Kinda pathetic but I hope the belated celebration for Dad next week can make it up for it.

Well, that aside. I've also been doing some excessive reading online, be it manga or fanfiction that has been sugar-induced to the point that I get a little too carried away with my wild imagination.

I guess that's about it. Time for more I'm-making-myself-even-more-bored moments at home!
Till next time! :)


A!

Going Jelly For...

Okay, so I just want to say that there are these few TV shows that have been turning me into some programmed robot who never fails to loyally switch on the TV set on certain timings of the night every Monday and Tuesday. Can't blame me since they are all really good shows and I'm a true blue sucker for shows that involve muscular guys with bullet proof vests, detectives/security specialist/private contractor/mercenary-for-hire/cops going after the bad guys and damned humor coming from (act) cool guys...

Wait, did I really just said that?! Shucks. Now it's a known fact that I will only go jelly if I ever see this type of guys. Actually, I find them sexy. Maybe I should see to it that when the time comes, I shall go find myself, well, that type of guy. Heh!

Time for an ogling fest!

HAWAII FIVE-0

Every Tuesday, 10pm to 11pm

Alex O'Loughlin (beside the pretty Grace Park) is... (insert appropriate adjective).

Well yeah. You get what I mean.

Human Target

Every Monday, 10pm to 11pm

Christopher Chance (played by Mark Valley) coolness.

The Mentalist

Airtime ended.

Patrick Jane (played by Simon Baker) is so damn hilarious. Dang, where's my Season 3?! I need his humor!

That's about it. These three are my current top favorite TV shows and I doubt that'll change anytime soon. And how I wish I could meet a mixture of these three guys all in one man. Bah, whatta impossible wish.

Hey! I do have fangirl crush like any other normal girls. Just don't put me alongside those obsessed bitches,  alright?

Operation Love Batam

It was last few days when I was browsing through all my photos over in Facebook that I chanced upon this memorable photo. It was taken about slightly more than a year ago in Batam while I was still in junior high school, doing some Community Involvement Project. I couldn't help it but to relive the moments and blog about it even when it's already in the past.

It may look like nothing much but the experience of making those kids smile amongst the downside of their lives was really what that truly awaken me to make more people smile. These orphans are truly wonderful kids that I think life has been really unfair to them. When my class was assigned to clean the the kids' tables and chairs, I swear I did it wholeheartedly and some of the boys even helped me carry the heavy tables to the back for scrubbing. Such sweet and kindness touched me.

How I wish I could go there again with my cohort and make more smiles appear from these kids... but I don't really know the place. Sad much :(

Small Cloud

Hey darling, I know I'm like 14 days late in wishing you a Happy 17th Birthday and truth be told, I don't have any recollection of when your birth date is actually. That's why I mostly rely on Facebook since my memory can never be trusted. For that, I'm really, really sorry if I ever appeared ignorance or anything. Anyways, nobody reminded me about it until recently, another lovely friend of ours came pounding on me through the phone. Heh! Once again, sorry for this belated wish. I know it's nothing much and all, but yeah...

Happy sweet 17 Birthday, Small Cloud!! May you excel in everything that you do and that happiness will forever cloud your life when you're with your loved ones. Hope that whatever you wished for will come true. Stay cute, funny and healthy. And oh, please continue laughing. It's contagious, really :) Love you! :)

Thank you for being my friend! This 90th blog post goes out solely to you.

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And oh, another thing. Sorry that I didn't mention to you about any of the class gathering such like the one happening right now at YC's house. It slipped my mind that you didn't have Facebook. The moment I was invited and I RSVP-ed myself as Not Attending, I thoroughly forgot about it until recently when the others started talking about it again. I didn't mean to leave you out or anything if you felt that way.

Thousand apologies and love,

A!

Hypophrenia

Hypophrenia - a vague feeling of sadness, seemingly without cause.

Oh, I get that a lot of times.

Nursing Home Mistreat Patient

After viewing the video, I got more doubtful of nursing homes in the way they employ workers to handle the old and frail patients. Do they not have strict requirements on their own employees? I mean, yeah sure everyone could handle taking care of old patients but not everyone will handle these patients with much care and concern. Then again, no one can truly check the inner depths of one's heart to know whether they qualify for such jobs.

Anyways, you don't leave an old woman naked under a full blast fan. It's stupid. They will get cold and dude, no one leaves a sick person naked in front of other people. And no one dumps an old woman onto the bed like some sack. It's very disrespectful and surely, hurtful too.

No one can blame the nursing home though, but we can still blame those foreign workers for mistreating that patient. What, so you come to Singapore to work doesn't mean you're given the free ticket to mishandle the main focus of your job. Patients have feelings too, dope.

What goes around, comes around. If these workers never repent, I am sure as hell that one day, when they do get old and their children put them in a nursing home, they'll be treated the same way as how they treat this poor old lady.

Now that this problem has come to light, I hope no other such cases from other nursing homes will surface on the news. I'll be pissed off, ya see.

Mistreating any old people is just low, man. I will surely look down on these assholes for their despicable actions.

  You know you really love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if that means that you are not a part of it.

Such An Indecisive Ass

No kidding, I'm being such an indecisive ass in the middle of the night, which all the more got me into a very complicated dilemma situation. I have no freaking idea how I'm going get myself out of this decision-making mess. Oh school, what have you done to us...?

So practically, I thought I won't have to go through another major decision-making after deciding on which course and campus to choose from at the beginning of the year. I was utterly wrong, however. Now I have to decide which Cross-Disciplinary Subject (CDS) to take and it's kinda a matter of life or death since it'll be included in my GPA. Another I make-it or break-it moments.

I've been asking those experienced ones about this decision-making and most of them come to an almost same conclusion.

"Pick whichever subject that you're very much interested in... or else, just go for those subjects that you can easily shoot and score like a pro."

"Try to avoid language-based subjects unless you got a flair for them... or else, you might flung it."

See my point? They're kinda making my life more indecisive even though I must still thank them for trying to help me in their own ways. How I wish my 2nd brother is here at home to help me thoroughly, but then again, I could see this as a step for me to be a fucking independent woman who doesn't rely on others and their opinions in her decisions. Why didn't I see that in the first place?!

That's not really the main problem actually. I don't fucking know which to follow, my heart or my brain? Both have their own logic which I totally could agree upon but I could only pick one over the other.

Heart or brain...

Then again, I'm never really the one to follow either my heart or brain. I usually prefer to let them clash and have a war of their own. Whoever with the most logical logic gets my pick then. That'll take up quite a long time though. Hmmmm... Let's try narrowing down the choices for now.

Language-based is so not in the list even though I would very much love to learn Japanese in case I would want to travel to Japan in a few years' time. Science-based can never be in my options because it simply sucks. Enough said.

Left with Design-based and Business-based. Really, girl? Going back to Design, where you once almost screwed it up even after the heart-wrenching effort have been put into. Heh!

Here goes my 5 choices (hopefully they're in order... or maybe not yet):

DIM 1906 - Ideation

BBS 1005 - Fundamentals of Entrepreneurship

BMK 1003 - Introduction to Marketing

DPD 1901 - Freehand Drawing

EBZ 2X01 - Management of Enterprise


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Guess what... Whatever mentioned above the line is what I've decided before I went to sleep and now that I just woke up, I get more and more indecisive. I even slept through an hour into the start of the selection time. Hopefully there's many other asses still sleeping so I can continue being so indecisive, or rather fickle-minded, without worrying much about the time stamp.


DIM 1906 - Ideation
BMK 1003 - Introduction to Marketing
DPD 1901 - Freehand Drawing
GLA 1005 - Fundamentals of Public Speaking
TCS 1002 - Introduction to Language & Culture (Japanese)


My submitted preferences. I think I should just live through with these choices and hope for the best. Fundamentals of Entrepreneurship wasn't even under my list and so I couldn't pick it. Sad life. Next semester hopefully I can take up or else I'm going to throw a major bitch fit.


You heard me well, assholes. And me having a major bitch fit will turn your lives into a a pile of rotten meat.
Unless someone manage to change my mindset and go for another interesting CDS which I doubt so.


Mofo.

'Cause when you fight, you truly find out how much you're willing to take before you break and when you break you need to see if that other person truly cares enough to make everything okay again...

If you were happy before you knew someone, you can be happy after they're gone. #JustSaying 

Trying my best to save as much money as possible and cutting down on buying so much expensive food each week. Really, because of food, money can sure as hell dwindle to almost nothing. It scares the shit out of me. I don't really have the card to withdraw my money because under my house, one can only be entrusted to hold the card once he or she turns 20 years in age. That means I'm the only silly one left with no card to hold.

How the heck am I supposed to fulfill my wishlist if I ain't got the moolah...

Well yeah, I should totally get myself a job but I just couldn't find myself a job that is flexible enough to fit my already-busy schedule. Screwed up, much?

My wishlist:

Ukulele

Acoustic guitar

Digital camera

Paperbacks

Eyeliner

Outings

So, uh, whoever wants to give me any of the 1st three in the above mentioned list for fun or my birthday in 2012, please do. I'll love you very much. Thank you!

(via asdfghjkllove)

Just because her eyes don't tear, doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry; Just because she comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

(via asdfghjkllove)

    Amor Deliria Nervosa : 

      The Love Disease.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” 

1st Term Break

Thank goodness the 3 days of MST is finally over. All there is left to do is to continue hoping even though the outcomes is predicted to be really disappointing.

Oh well, it is over. Move along, guys.

I officially start my term break earlier by 2 days because I need that damned rest and 2 days is very valuable. So this 2 weeks and 2 days, be prepared to see me pampering myself with so much sleep, reading, drawing, writing and cleaning my room. Though I must say, a particular major project is a serious mood killer but I shall not stress myself over it yet!

9 June: Wake up late. Lounge around my room. Type my fanfics that I owe. Write 2nd brother a heartfelt letter to show our support as he goes on a 6-day intensive training. Read manga.

10 June: Wake up at 9am. Meet girlfriends for outing to the airport (bring SLIDE! coins). Read a book.

11 June: Wake up at 8am. Lounge around my room. Clean my room thoroughly. Mount the photo holder onto the wall. Write my fanfics.

12 June: Wake up late. Try to get inspiration to start drawing again.

13 June - 24 June: Go out on certain days if anyone requests or else I'm gonna happily lock myself in my room. Complete major project on most days. Chilling out by myself all the time.

25 or 26 June: Attend Cosfest X.1 at Downtown East.

I guess this summarize how I'll be spending this short term break. Kinda boring but who gives a flying fuck. It's my monotonous life, hey.

Finally sent 2nd brother to Pulau Tekong earlier today and hell, I can't imagine him going bald. I bet he'll look damn weird. And I rather not call it 'serving NS' but instead, to call it 'attending military school' because it just so happens that it sounds way cooler like that.

He'll be gone for 3 weeks starting today and I'm already missing him so very much. I get all teary-eyed every time I think that he's not here for me during those times when I really need him most for 3 whole weeks.

Now, being one of those times when I really need him to be here for me. Parents quarreling like there's no tomorrow and they are having problems with 1st brother. I want to have peace in my life right now because I'm not really at the stable side of my mind. If 2nd brother is here at home, at least the presence of him can calm me down and I won't be bothered so much about the problems arising at home.

Sometimes, when such moments arise, I really wish I'm not right here at home to witness it all.

I can't concentrate on what I have to do right now.

All I'm looking forward to now is to know that 2nd brother is calling home tonight.

3 weeks, please past by quickly. Thanks.

Oh dear. 7th June 2011.

The date when my beloved 2nd brother will embark on his duty for the nation.

He's going NS and I'll miss him so badly.

I will be missing the person whom I confide in about my school work during the weekdays.

How infuriatingly sad!

I wish him all the best in health, fitness, safety and strength.

With Love Pt 1

Dedication Pt 1

EMILY, FRONIA, QI, RACHEL, NAZERA

I miss you girls so freaking much, to the point that I really want to reverse the time. It's sad, really, when there's so many things that come in our way of meeting up more often. Yes, I know some will say that this will all the more strengthen our relationship... But seriously, in my case, I'm just fearful that I might sooner or later forget our good times together. You gotta know by now that I really got a weak memory. Whatever happens before 2009 is very vague to me right now. So there you have it, my brain could only contain 2 to 3 years of memory in terms of events and people. I guess forgetting is my forte whenever I have to move on from some things in life. (Probably the reason why I start this blog so I can retain as much memory as possible) I really, really do not wish to forget our time as a clique though. As much as I want to cherish them, half of those memories are just... gone.

Anyways, I'm sorry for giving you girls a reason to be sad last time due to my immature thinking of wanting to leave the clique. My maturity level used to be a negative. Now it has shot up so high that I almost lose my humorous side. Help me retain that bright side of me soon.

You girls will forever be in my heart even when it's not the mind.

I love you :)

With much love and soul,

A!

"I want to tell you so badly how I feel, but I'm scared that after I pour out all my feelings for you, you're just going to stare at me like the words don't mean a thing to you. It's amazing when two strangers become the best of friends, but it's sad when the best of friends become two strangers..."

I'm currently making some changes in my life. If you don't hear from me anymore, you're probably part of those changes.

Just A Kiss

Just A Kiss

Lady Antebellum

Lying here with you so close to me

It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe

Caught up in this moment

Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone

So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms

We don't need to rush this

Let's just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch in the fire burning so bright

No, I don't wanna mess this thing up

I don't wanna push to far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life

So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time

It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find

It's never felt so real

No, it's never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch in the fire burning so bright

No, I don't wanna mess this thing up

I don't wanna push to far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life

So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No, I don't wanna say goodnight

I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams

Tonight

Tonight

Tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch in the fire burning so bright

No, I don't wanna mess this thing up

I don't wanna push to far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life

So baby I'm alright,

Ooh~ Let's do this right, just a kiss goodnight

With a kiss goodnight

Kiss goodnight

I Do

I Do

Colbie Caillat

It's always been about me, myself and I

I though all relationships were nothing but a waste of time

I never wanted to be anybody's other half

I was happy saying that I had a love that wouldn't last

That was the only way I knew till I met you

You make me wanna say

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do do

Yeah, I do, I do I do, do do do do do do do

Cause every time before it's been like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I can live without it, I could let it go

Ooh what did I get myself into

You make me wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

Tell me, is it only me?

Do you feel the same?

You know me well enough to know that I'm not playing games

I promise I won't turn around and I won't let you down

You can trust

I've never felt it like I feel it now

Baby there's nothing, there's nothing we can't get through

So can we say

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do do

Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do do

Cause every time before it's been like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I won't live without it, I won't let it go

Wooh~ Can I get myself into

You make me wanna say

Me, a family

A house, a family

Ooh~ Can we be a family?

And when I'm eighty years old and sitting next to you

And we'll remember when we said

I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do do

Oh baby, I do, I do, I do, do do do do do do do

Cause every time before it's been like

Maybe yes and maybe no

I won't live without it, I won't let us go

Just look at what we got ourselves into

You make me wanna say I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do,

Love you.

Begin Again

Begin Again

Colbie Caillat

I can't get you out of the sunlight

I can't get you out of the rain

I can't get you back to that one time

'Cause you and me are still recovering

So let's just try to cool it down

The fighting, this feeling of flames

And let's just try to slow it down

We crash when we race

Oh, this is not the way that it should end

It's the way it should begin

It's the way it should begin again

No, I never wanna fall apart

Never wanna break your heart

Never wanna let you break my own

Yes, I know we've said a lot of things

That we probably didn't mean

But it's not too late to take them back

So before you say you wanna go

I should probably let you know

That I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

See, I look for you in the morning

'Cause that's what my mind always calls

And I can't wait to get to the evening

'Cause that's when I want you the most

So let's just try to cool it down

The fighting, this feeling of flames

And let's just try to slow it down

We crash when we race

Oh, this is not the way that it should end

It's the way it should begin

It's the way it should begin again

No, I never wanna fall apart

Never wanna break your heart

Never wanna let you break my own

Yes, I know we've said a lot of things

That we probably didn't mean

But it's not too late to take them back

So before you say you're gonna go

I should probably let you know

That I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

But I know it now

I wish I would've known before how good we were

Is it too late to come back?

Or is it really over? If it's really over...

So let's just try to cool it down

The fighting, this feeling of flames

And let's just try to slow it down

We crash when we race

Oh, this is not the way that it should end

It's the way it should begin

It's the way it should begin again

No, I never wanna fall apart

Never wanna break your heart

Never wanna let you break my own

Yes, I know we've said a lot of things

That we probably didn't mean

But it's not too late to take them back

So before you say you're gonna go

I should probably let you know

That I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

I never knew what I had

You Got Me

You Got Me

Colbie Caillat

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes

I can't pretend though I try to hide

I like you, I like you

I think I felt my heart skip a beat

I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe

You got me, yeah, you got me

The way you take my hands is just so sweet

And that crooked smile of yours

It knocks my off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up?

It feel so good, it must be love

It's everything that I've been dreaming of

I give up, I give in, I let go

Let's begin

'Cause no matter what I do

Oh, my heart is filled with you

I can't imagine what it'd be like

Living each day in this life

Without you, without you

One look from you, I know you understand

This mess we're in, you know is just so out of hand

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up?

It feel so good, it must be love

It's everything that I've been dreaming of

I give up, I give in, I let go

Let's begin

'Cause no matter what I do

Oh, my heart is filled with you

I hope we always feel this way

(I know we will)

And in my heart I know that you'll always stay

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up?

It feel so good, it must be love

I give up, I give in, I let go

Let's begin

'Cause no matter what I do

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up?

It feel so good, it must be love

(It's everything that I've been dreaming of)

I give up, I give in, I let go

Let's begin

'Cause no matter what I do

Oh, my heart is filled with you

Oh, you got me, you got me

Oh, oh, you got me, you got me

I Never Told You

I Never Told You

Colbie Caillat

I miss those blue eyes

How you kissed me at night

I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise

Like the taste of your smile

I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you

Without you

I see your blue eyes

Every time I close mine

You make it hard to see

Where I belong to

When I'm not around you

It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you

Without you

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you

Without you

Fearless

Fearless

Colbie Caillat

If that's the way you love you've got to learn so much

If that's the way you say goodbye

Then this is how it ends and I'm alright with it

You're never gonna see me cry 'cause I've cried

So go on, go on and break my heart

I'll be okay, there's nothing you can do to me

That's ever gonna bury me

So go on, go on and leave my love

Out on the street

I'm fearless

Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

So, oh woh woh ohh woh ohh ohh~

If this is how it hurts, it couldn't get much worse

If this is how it feels to fall

Then that's the way it is we live with what we miss

We learn to build another wall till it falls

So go on, go on and break my heart

I'll be okay, there's nothing you can do to me

That's ever gonna bury me

So go on, go on and leave my love

Out on the street

I'm fearless

Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

So, oh woh woh ohh woh ohh ohh~

If it's between love and losing

And to never have known the feeling, I'd still side with love

And if I end up lonely, at least I will be there knowing I believe in love

Go on, go on and break my heart

I'll be okay, I'm fearless

Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

Go on, go on and break my heart

I'll be okay, there's nothing you can do to me

That's ever gonna bury me

So go on, go on and leave my love

Out on the street

I'm fearless

Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

I'm fearless

So go on and leave my love

Go on and leave my love

Go on and leave my love

Better believe I'm fearless, fearless

Fearless, fearless

Nowadays, there's hardly many songs that holds so much meaning for the soul and lyrics that says so much about one's true feelings. All you can hear on radio stations are mostly songs full of vulgarities and sex. Like, really. Do they have to make so many songs about vulgarities and sex? I prefer if they keep songs about sex in their own bedroom and songs filled with vulgarities away from young ears listening to the radio. Those songs are catchy, I must say, but that is all to it. Catchiness. Nothing more, nothing less. Some times I do wish the singers will sing so fast so that I can hear nothing of the uncouth lyrics.

Therefore, I'm proud to admit that these few singers are my favorites. Be it jazz, soul, , country, country pop, ballads, R& B etc.

♥♥♥ Colbie Caillat

♥♥♥ Lady Antebellum
♥♥♥ Zee Avi
♥♥♥ Evanescence
Duffy
Adele
Marie Digby
Paolo Nutini
KT Tunstall

Stacie Orrico

James Morrison

Damien Rice

Jason Mraz

Norah Jones

Alicia Keys

India.Arie

Taylor Swift

John Mayer

"see, you made me so conscious about it la! anyway, stressed up thing number 2. you always feel insignificant in the clique but do you know how important you truly are to us? there will be so many horrific and gore scenes that will happen if you ever chose to leave us. can you imagine. our twisted neck? (like the DEVIL movie) and the pieces of meat squeezed through that disgusting metal fence (FINAL DESTINATION 4)? i do know you enjoy gore but honestly, you dont want that to happen to us. right? HAHAHA! only reply me if its a no. thanks. HEHE. LOVE YOU LA. STOP STRESSING ON YOUR WORK OKAY. and good job in completing all your housing reading stuff. i forgot the proper term D: but yah. i ruff you 2. :D"


Just some dedication I get from one of my sweet girlfriends. Thanks, love.

I'm sorry for coming back way before my hiatus is over, but I just gotta post something to alleviate my unhealthy anger towards my class' handling of the money matters. It is utterly disgraceful and unacceptable because they way they handle it really makes me think that they are embezzling the class fund. Don't worry, I still think that way. What not, my trust towards these few people have dwindled greatly ever since this 'problem' starts.

Have they got no brains?

Wanna know what the problem is...?

Well, here it is!

The previous social rep have been spending so much money on individual's birthday, that I think it's just really unreasonable. Fuck it. Those idiots spent $40 for a cake that is super small and they expect us to share equally among 23 students... But that is beside the point. The main thing is that they still want us to pay for it when we have already been contributing to the class fund for several weeks (Damn you! $2 per week is a lot when accumulated!)

When one of my friends asked why they never use the class fund instead, the answer to that was ridiculously a no-brainer. They are saving up those money for class chalet. Really, morons? You think I pay class fund will mean I will go to the class chalet?! Even if I go, I'll only go during the day. But it seems like I still have to pay the price for an overnight. Wanna know why I don't wanna attend this supposed class chalet...? Because it is obvious who will conquer the whole class event...and obviously, there will be booze being passed around. You think I wanna be surrounded by  half-drunk  drunkard fools? Fuck no, please.

I can't really voice out my reasonings to them because they will obviously look at me like a piece of trash afterwards...But I got a mirror for them to look who's the real trash.

Don't worry. I wasn't a fool to listen to their constant asking for money. I didn't pay up for any birthdays anyways and I don't give shit if they don't come up with anything during my birthday. I prefer to celebrate it with close friends like Rachel, Wawa, Meredith, Tse Fang, Qid, Carissa, Si Min, Zinnia. And also celebrate it with my loved ones - my awesome but weird clique and my family.

My birthday is a close affair. I don't need it to be celebrated with people I disapproved of.

Enough said. This is just my own personal opinion.

Whoever got a problem with me after reading this, you can kindly scram from this blog.