Dear Mama...

Dear Mama,

What makes you think being in school for long hours, lugging around thick books on one shoulder, having a jam-packed timetable and trying to absorb Level 3 knowledge is not tiring?

I know you're also tired from the household chores you have to do everyday but what makes you think I have the energy to do them after I return home from school?

I don't even ask to be served drinks or food once I reached home like Dad usually do. I serve myself.

I know it's only the beginning of Year 2 but you shouldn't think that I am so free like how I used to be in Year 1. Things have changed and we have so much more to study this semester. I want to get certifications so that I can give you a better life once I work. I have promised myself to devote more of my time on studies so that I can make you proud. I'm sorry if I've failed you in the previous semesters but I was still immature back then. I assure you, I want to change for the better. If only you could understand how mentally draining life in school now is as compared to a few years back.

If you continue to be cranky and demand so much of me after school hours, I don't think I can keep up this facade, these strong walls I've erected around myself against the bad influence. I will definitely breakdown and I really don't want to go through that long episode of having a mental disorder.

So I beg of you, for the next few months, will you just be there for me to give me motivation, inspiration and most important of all, never-ending encouragement? I don't have anyone else to ask these from but only you.

In return, I'll try my best to meet your demands over the weekends and once this is over, I want to treat you for everything you've done.

So please, just give me some space and support like how you used to back then. I need it.
Thank you.

Sincerely, Daughter